Cheeku
PVR is so much your place. I first heard of it from you. It was always the happening place and you had to hang out where the action was.
We went to see a movie there today. The weather was so wonderful, it seemed it would rain. The air was cool and sun was playing hide and seek with the clouds. I could sense you all around me. And then I could sense your absence all around me. The sense of belonging and the sense of loss were both so entwined. Now and then my glasses would fog-there seemed to be rain within and outside.
There isn’t a moment when I don’t miss you. There isn’t a moment when I don’t wish there was some way to turn the clock back-just go back one year and change everything…how I wish there was some way I could…
It wasn’t leaving as foreseen, even if it so says-no it wasn’t.
Leaving As Foreseen
Like a memorized road’s
lines of green pond, sloping
bank and dark, deep hint of shade
Like a song long settled
into ease but often found circling
the heart’s unspeakable grief
Like an intimate room with a view
of trees, causing out of a window
a continual need
My swaying head of love-deeds
stumbles deliriously after
your salt and thinning scent.
Ezra Pound
I miss you, beta…
Dad