I am sitting in my room really knackered. Today was my last exam. They just went alright. As you know at the end of a great battle if you feel victorious, though the result in this one is unknown, you still take some tme relishing the hard work and living the moment, getting euphoric and meloncholic at the same time. I am in the same position. Euphoric because three four months of real battling and complete isolation from the beautiful creation of the god, this world, have come to an end and meloncholic because what now. I am staring at the endless tunnel now that is life. No matter as hard I try I can’t keep you out of my mind. When you were around world was my oyster and then when I came to London it seemed like a maze and now it appears to be a minefield getting more treacherous as the time progresses. Different ambushes of this wicked world await me. A different life altogether when I get back to India, going through those motions which Gaurav probably is going through right now. How I wish I could spend my life in a peaceful house in a beautiful countryside in this god blessed place England. Though no prejudice to the magnificence of India which I will always admire. But may be I am a little disillusioned right now or may be I am just exaggerating my feelings. But earlier the fact that kept me going was that we will work together, open up a law firm, work hard and enjoy liffe. Now that disgrace for the mankind, that farce, that mockery which is Delhi patrifies me. Benign apologies for those who share the opposite view. I can hear your voice every now and then just calling my name and telling me to stay calm and composed. Sometimes I feel like Forrest Gump without someone who tells me to run. Maya thats what I used to call you, I wish that you respond. What a coincidence, just when I am writing this I get a call from Kashyap who tells me me about his life and about Saumya, who apparently has grown up so much and about Dipesh that he’s going to see a girl In Delhi, that is hilarious. Its just a great feeling to be connected with such people. But the protagonist has left. I want to roll back this CD and go back to the summer of 99 when it was all so great and colourful. I’ve never thought about anything at that time. But now one thing that kept me busy, London, is also leaving me on my own. The charisma, the splendor, the grandeur which it offered was all so fascinating. Those seven days in the mesmerising glory of Paris will be something to recall in my life. Leaving all these behind I have to go ahead and face the life head on. I will always miss you but at the same time I hope that you make me feel that you are right beside me. I know you will. Enjoy wherever you are and remember that you are still breathing in this world through all those people who love you.