dear maya
this is just my 2nd post to u in last 3 years. as i had mentioned earlier, i dont have the courage to interact with you or to read other posts. so i have intentionaly kept myself away.
but then i dreamt of you last night….n could’nt stop myself from writing to you.
i saw you n gaurav in my dream….could’nt believe my eyes at first. i almost screamed “mayaaaa…cant believe its you…where have you been….what happened?”
“shit happens man! was in bangkok for last few years. no one knew of this. just got back” you replied as if you just got back from a vacation.
“dude so happy to see you!!! cant believe you are here. but how come you lost so much weight??”
” man all that thai food for last few years just got a bit too much ” u said with a smile.
i was almost jumping in excitement that you are alive and back to jaipur. gaurav , who was standing behind you , had a big smile n a glitter in his eyes.
n just then i woke up n realised it was all a dream. n i was left cold n numb. yet again.
i have never felt more helpless in my enitre life. i felt so heavy n felt like shouting n crying out loud. it was as if god had just played a vry cruel game . why else would he make me see such a dream. i was soooo happy n excited to have you back. and in a split second he took everything away. yet again.
maya i so wish i’d chosen b’ball over cricket. i so wish i had spent more time with you guys in school. i so wish i had taken up science instead of commerce. i so wish my dream would have lasted a lil longer. i so wish i’d not woken up . n i so wish you were here….miss you dude!
abhin