Cheeku,
With time, everything undergoes change…and as time moves ceaselessely and change become constant. The earth has gone round the sun eleven times in these last eleven years and I have seen everyone in our lives transform bit by bit, like the water dripping drop by drop emptying one vessel and filling another. Your presence is as fragrant and elusive as it always has been even though each one of us left behind have spun our own webs in which we remain struggling to be or become.
I often think of London. I don’t know the city so well but I have my memories of the last tme we were together…that evening when you boarded the bus, there was something very sad about that parting and I couldn’t place my finger on it just then. Little did I know that that last glimpse I had of you going right back to the last seat in the bus would be the last glimpse I would have of you on this earth. You boarded the bus from behind the Victoria station. So often I have tried to go back to that bus stop when I am in London. I have just not been able to bring myself to get there…the pain of that parting the longing for the return of that evening when I should have stopped you, may be make you miss the bus…that would have altered our destiny just that bit. Maybe.
We had walked through London, even the Baker street. I remember how he had walked tnrough the day, just sauntered around. As we came across the statue of Sherlock Holmes, you posed near it. I took the picture. I can see you standing there your lanky form leaning against the statue a sardonic smile playing on your lips. Memories, how they tug at my heart’s strings, how the longing to be with you becomes unbearably strong…I just sit still till the intensity of the feeling subsides a bit…it is a routine that has played out for me from one episode to another.
Someday I will catch up with you…when I see you again…
It’s been a long day, without you my friend
And I’ll tell you all about it when I see you again
We’ve come a long way, from where we began
Oh I’ll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again
Love
Dad