hey….winter is settin in again…dat time of d year wen evrythng seems to b changing…..wen i begin sleepin all day…wen college seems so empty evn wid evryone der…..wen i only want to snuggle into bed wid a book…n den lie awake late into d nite thinkin bout its intricacies…..n wake up jst a lil late fer my first class…n missin it one more time…resolving each time dat it wud b d last time….winter is so beautiful…yet dont u think it has a touch of melancholy…or mayb dats jst how i look at it…or mayb we jst need to look fer laughter….or mayb its sumtimes good to feel dis way ….only to get to knw oneself better….i dont really knw wat i m talkin here…i dont evn knw if i shud post dis msg…but i think i will…..i dont knw knw y i m writtin dis…..xcept dat i want to….tubby says i m impulsive ..mostly…i dont think so….do u …?? its 2:15am….i knw tomorrow’s fist class is already dwn d drain….i finally seem to b discovering wat i actually love doin….m d director of dis play…d script is still underway….dunno if it will turn out well…or evn if i will stage it…..but i m lovin evry moment of it….sittin n brain storming wid frenz ovr coffee and muffins….edittin n re-edittin d script….closing my eyes n visualising how i want a scene to look on stage….i think u mite lik d outcome……n i have finally discovered wat i love most…. i m still a beginner at it…but i m learning to love history of art more n more wid each passin day…its becomin somthng of an obsession…but d sad part is dat most ppl arnd me find it way too boring…so i m left wid vry few ppl to talk to bout it…..i think i love d journey of learing more den d mastery itself…..i love discovering dat which i do not knw…n thinkin bout it n talkin bout it….i love d pursuit more den d moment of attaining it…..once i have it i want to move ahead wid one new pursuit…a new adventure…a new passion….a new journey…..i think u wud understand wat i mean….i love d excitement of discoveing sumthng new…..wen dat excitement fizzles out d “thing” doesnt interest me anylonger…sum ppl say i m not tenacious enuf….do u think its true…?? wat i set out to discover …i do….its only wen i m done wid it ….dat i set it aside…..der is so much more i want to say…but i really dont think i m makin much sense….i think i will go sleep…..
take care….more bout it later…